shitty and helpless

Feeling really shitty now. Knowing that my poor dar is sick and all alone in the States, and here I am in Jakarta. Will be back on Fri, and the least that I can do is to take the leave and fly up as soon as I can up to be with her. Maybe really shouldnt have made the trip up earlier and cause her to feel sick. And also this Jak trip. Dar, hang in there. I know you are really miserable, and if only there is something I can do. I can only pray and hope that this willl pass soon. Seeing you like tat, I really dont know wat to do.

24 more

We came back this morning. Was it fast... how 1 week in the States has come and gone. Somehow my wife seems to be bouncing back slower this time. I know she was really overjoyed, and how 1 week has now seemed to thrown her off balance ....again. All I can only offer is that it is 24 more days. And Claire was coughing, so the Singapore humidity may be better for her. But alas, now my wife is down with a fever. And what can I offer: drink more water and take the medicine pls.

Feels near yet so far. Dar, you've come a long way. A long long way, and the light at the end of the tunnel is clearer now, though it is still a distance away. Its tough, and though short, yet now the time seems to pass extra slow. But I really hope that you "cherish" wat ever memories and try to relax and feel the envt. I know you would wish to come back immediately, and reading this only extends the agony. This is the last time I will write abt such things, so tat you can get yr mind off things.

I will just pray that you recover soon, and tat the clock will tick faster..til 13 Dec. 24 more.

New York...Ithaca

So we are now in the midst of our little getaway in Ithaca. We arrived NY on Fri nite, and had such a long check-in, but we made it through with the curry paste. So glad to see my wife. And she was very excited to see us too...

We had a good few days in NY, visiting the Toys R Us and the ferris wheel. Oh and can we forget out favourite chinese food at Canal Street. Weather was still good. We reached Ithaca yesterday and checked in the Best Western. Very spacious room, and my wife's culinary skills have gotten better. We had 2 good hot and piping homemade meals with love. Went for the scan to see No. 4 also. Thankfully, the baby is fine and well with God's blessing.

Just 2 more days before we leave on Fri. Got to enjoy....

Going US

Today is the day that we have been waiting for. I will be flying to US with Claire shortly. I hope that we enjoy our time, although I am apprehensive about the flight time....18 and half hours no joke man...To add that I started to feel a little unwell last night. Woke up at 5+. Claire has also not been feeling too good cos of her throat. The antibiotics also made her feel weak. Last night, talking to my dar, also realised that she was not feeling well, womb keep contracting and she was feeling sick. How come like that when we are about to go. And the freak thing happened yesterday when I was stung by a bee...the 1st time in my life...I hope that God will bless us and have a safe trip.

Last night as I was reading to Teck and Chloe, also felt sad, like cant bear to leave them. Teck has been asking to go for the longest time, with me to see mummy. Will have to disappoint him. I hope that when I see dar in NY, can enjoy my time. But time really passes quickly, it's now 10 Nov, abt a month before she will return...looking fowards to it.

Chloe is 2

Cant quite imagine. My youngest girlie turned 2 today. Can still recall when she was an infant. How we looked after her; well more like we took her for granted, hence her speaking development is slow. But today, she is no longer an infant but a toddler. She's quite sticky to me, and when I scolded her earlier for playing saliva, she actually faked crying...Tat's the sign...tat's why we are having No.4.

But well, my poor dar had to watch half a world away at us eating. Poor thing. Cant say that I understand how you feel, but I know you're down. I hope that the next 7 days pass quickly too, and we'll be on the flight to NY, NY. Just wait a little while more for us, ok?