shitty and helpless

Feeling really shitty now. Knowing that my poor dar is sick and all alone in the States, and here I am in Jakarta. Will be back on Fri, and the least that I can do is to take the leave and fly up as soon as I can up to be with her. Maybe really shouldnt have made the trip up earlier and cause her to feel sick. And also this Jak trip. Dar, hang in there. I know you are really miserable, and if only there is something I can do. I can only pray and hope that this willl pass soon. Seeing you like tat, I really dont know wat to do.