how life can play tricks

Just mid last week, I was dreading over what seems like a helpless situation. Over the course of a few days, things seem to have changed. I guess the important thing for me to know is that she can cope. How strange, but the words "the road to heaven is not the smooth straight path", seems to hold true again.

Am glad that she has persevered...with God's grace.Just hope that everything will stay this way. Other fortunate thing was that she received the parcels I sent and the "consoling" email frm the dean. I hope that no.4 is really the gift that we are waiting for.

Things have been busy for me, and I was grumbling that I was under-utlised again. Looks like its going to be busy days ahead...

If I could turn back the clock

Sad to hear about the state of my wife. Wish there is something more that I can do. But what can I do? Sometimes, I want to tell her, but I dont want her to feel pressurized. And I certainly dont want her to think that I am telling her what to do. As it is, I am already not there by her side...

As I look back, only if I could turn back the clock. And this path we have chosen is not going to be easy. I can only pray that it does not get too difficult, and that hopefully, the Lord can let the difficult period pass.

Roller coaster

Just last week, it was traumatic as to the decision to be made. WE cried over it and at the end of the weekend, we had no resolution. Imagine when the decision was made to keep. I supposed it was a relief in a sense, since we were both in higher spirits and could eat and sleep well...until this week. Imagine that there is now a realisation that the tough phase will be coming and she will be all alone. I can see how she will be suffering and to study and cope in a faraway place no less. It really takes courage and faith. I dont know, and there is nothing I can do....And the winter is going to be trying to say the least, with the physical impairment.

Watching her and sensing her helplessness. I know the doubts are going to come soon. How? Maybe I should be selfish and tell her not to...I wonder how the next week will be.

3 days apart

It has been 3 days since I returned from New York. 3 days also that I have been apart from my dearest. Seems strange that we are now physically apart and talking via msn and email....but thankfully we can still rely on the webcam and computer to share our thoughts.

I am sure the time is passing slower for her than for me, and yet I can only wait for her return in end Aug and then its another 3 months....