Test of Faith

We went to the gynae today, and was told that dar had miscarried.
Apparently, it may have happened not too long after the bleeding incident. I know dar is feeling very upset and keeps blaming herself. But like I explained to her, it was something that was just not meant to be.

It has really been a roller-coaster ride, when we discovered that she was pregnant, was unsure about keeping the baby. Decided that we had to do so. Tried to weaned off Noah, and then the bleeding incident, but was told the foetus was ok. She went on MC for 2 odd weeks, and just when we thought it was ok (although today was supposed to be the Down syndrome test), we were told about this.

I cant say that I empathetise cos I never will be able to feel what Dar is really feeling. But I hope that she stays strong, because we need to move. Because we still have 4 more. Because we need to keep faith with God, even though we dont know what or where this is leading us now. It may be a test, and we need to persevere.

Dar, I'll be here. We are in this together, and always remember that we still have 4 wonderful gifts...

Valentines Day 2009

We had a scare on 12 Feb, when Dar bleed profusely. Fortunately, I just came back after my golf game was interrupted. Even I was stunned. Was never so afraid. We finally went to Dr Lai and baby & mummy was pronounced safe. Was just thinking about it yesterday, about how Vday this year really felt strange...but dar and me just shared a bowl of noodles for Vday at 330am this morning. Like she says, we are both going to put on weight...well but at least some silver lining.

When we woke up today, we were pleasantly surprised by the kids efforts to celebrate for us. Actually, Claire has been planning it the whole week. While we often scold her for being lazy, she is really thoughtful. She garnered "unwilling" Nigel and "unhelpful" Chloe to produce this for us. Thanks Claire, Nigel & Chloe...The kids are really God's Vday presents for us..

And now we will take good care for the last gift...only pray that God will help dar. She's still bleeding even today, but fortunately yest's medicine did help a little.