Fortitude

Listening to what my dar has to say about the newspaper article makes me sad. Sad that I am not there with her, sad that she is being discouraged for doing well.

To a certain extent, I feel helpless that I cant do anything much for her, less lending her a listening ear. If only I could be physically with her. And yet, I cant help but thank God for giving us Shaun. At least he can be my proxy to keep her company. And give her the support she so badly needs.

I think I know what she is feeling. The fact of not being appreciated for trying and doing what you do. Makes you feel like a lump of shit, asking yourself why you are doing it. Strange, this is what you get for wanting to do your best for the organisation. Or is it like what I wrote previously...this a means to strengthen us? I hope so. I've asked myself this question. If she is doing well, why should she make herself do badly, just to please people? We are taught to be sensitive and politically inclined so that we dont step on people's toes....but what the heck, at the expense of ourself? I think, as long as the conscience is clear and you have some support form the family, and for her 1 friend (I hope), that is enough. We should live for ourselves, and treat it as a lesson learnt...that you need to take care of yourself. If it pisses people, so be it.

The whole family is behind you. In all that you do. At the end of the day, if you are happy, we are happy... with and for you.